break
Tuesday, March 26, 2002
hi, im back from my little emotional break type thing. i cried a lot on sunday and on monday night. im okay now. ive had a lot of deaths from people who i was close to (sadly) so i guess im getting better at handling it. i went to the visitaion yesterday. it hurt me to look at him. they put makeup on him that was a little too dark. fuckers. there were a lot of people there too. i think we waited in line for about an hour. you know the saying "you dont know how much they mean to you until you lose them"? well its very true. ::sigh:: but, im better now. life will go on. of course it hurts, but ive learned to carry on. anyway. not much else really. anne and i went on a girls night out type thing tonight. we hung out at her house then went shopping. i got the next dvd that i needed for rurouni kenshin. ^-^ gah. im just in a blarg moon tonight, despite getting something. i think part of it may be because im hungry tho. im a bit more moody when im hungry. ::coughs:: anywayssss...i think ill change my layout tonight. then ill read some fanfiction and manga, or watch kenshin. o^.^o sounds like a plan ne? oh tonight anne and i decided that we're going to go to anime iowa together too. and when we go, shes going as Hiro and im going as Shuichi (from Gravitation). ^-^ it'll be fun. well im off for now.
i must try to have a more positive look on my life.
~Chibi petted the kitties at 07:05 p.m.~
oh my god
Sunday, March 24, 2002
my friend Chris Hines died.
~Chibi petted the kitties at 07:06 p.m.~
compy hates me
Sunday, March 24, 2002
gr. my computer hates me. for some reason it wont let me download some things. and i need to for my new layout. its an utena one. *.* ::sighs:: maybe ill put it on a disk and go to the libary and do it. anyway.
yesterday was pretty boring. i spent most of the day chatting. i was bored. i didnt want to go anywhere. i just wanted to stay home and be lazy. so, i blew off going to go seeing family members from minnesota to stay home. ::shrugs:: ya know, i just wasnt in the mood. now today, i have a lot of homework to do. ::sigh:: stress stress. the stress is coming back. i think i lacked details on my little emotional breakdown from a few weeks ago. oh well. its not really that important now i guess. hm. i want a new computer damnit. which, for some reason, reminded me of something. If im extremely lucky, i might get to go to japan in the summer. but thats only if im lucky. its extremely expensive. like $6000 or something. o.o; i *REALLY* want to go. i would do almost anything to go. (almost, i wouldnt kill anyone. maybe beat them up.) XD ::dreams:: *.* wow that would be so cool. ::coughs:: well anyway. i have to go now. like i said, lots of homework. ja ne.
~Chibi petted the kitties at 06:44 p.m.~
Nigete
Saturday, March 23, 2002
I just saw the movie Run Lola Run. It was a really interesting movie. Lola had to help her boyfriend get 100,000 marks (cause he messed up some drug deal) in 20 min or he would be killed. They showed 3 outcomes. 1 where lola died, 1 where her boyfriend died, and the last one was the real ending. ^-^ a really good movie. I loved the use of music and the split screens. I was on the edge of my seat the whole time. which is why im still up now too. o.o; The suspense was intense (RHYME! =D). And the different effects that could have happened just by running into lola. I enjoyed every mineute of it. and it was in GERMAN! x_x! (yes with english subtitles you dork, otherwise i wouldnt understand barely any of it) i love this movie. OH I also liked the use of the animation clips. very cool.
can you tell i want to be a director? XD i critque every single film i see, even anime. XD i love to analyize plots and caracters, ya know step into their shoes or, as i like to say, get inside their head? ^-^ and i love movies and tv. wai!
anyway, back on subject. AWESOME movie. i want the soundtrack man! XD the music was nice and techno-ish, it really added to the suspense. You could just *feel* the emotions radiating from the screen. intense. i thought i would pop. o_o; slow motion was also used well in the film. there were times when they used slow motion and you just heard what lola was thinking. i liked that. you really got to know her as a character. oi. im tired. this is kinda hard to write when youre braindead at the moment. i really need my sleep. =.=; anyhoo. if you can find this movie, SEE IT! the best word i can think of to describe it is one that ive said several times earlier: Intense. awsome move.
P.S. Lola is the queen of screaming. O_o; she could probably beat me in a screaming fight. and thats something. OH and one more thing, totally off topic. my little sister Emily just got home from Disneyworld toda-er actually yesterday now. o.o; more on that later. i need my sleep. oyasumi nasai minna san. ^.^
~Chibi petted the kitties at 03:40 a.m.~
im not dead
Friday, March 22, 2002
w00t. back. i went over to kit nee chans house last night. ^.^ i helped worked on her site. its not done yet tho. ^^; shes a great artist. *.* then we watched yami no matsuei. wheee! pirated tapes! XD hee hee. today, all ive been doing is sitting in front of compy, doing random things. o.o; usually chatting or neopets. i love chatting. its so fun. ^.^ whee! right now im kinda bored. i think ill archive and change my layout for fun. o_o; im serious, i love layouts. theyre so muchu fun. now, if i could only figgure out how to make my own, then id be all set! XD i mean, i pretty much know HTML, but my problem is the images. i wouldnt know what goes where and such. XD anyway. i got some cool sound files from gravi. i think theyre from one of the drama CDs, cause i dont recognize them from the show. espically the condom one. O.o! its so funny! shu and yuki are talking about condoms!! XD its funneh. anyway. im gonna either go look for a new layout or chat some more. wai!
~Chibi petted the kitties at 11:12 p.m.~
work
Thursday, March 21, 2002
im actually going to go clean my room now.
wish me luck. XD!
~Chibi petted the kitties at 01:50 p.m.~
TESUTO!
Wednesday, March 20, 2002
Click here to find out what Rayearth character you are!
Oh God, the horror. Seek help, you're "lmfao". You laugh a little too much.
You are a classy person who buys or adores expensive clothes from the Catwalk. You love to cuddle, and know that the whole world loves you. You eat gourmét food, and loves everything that glitters or shines. You love luxury very much, and if you aren't rich just yet know that someday you will.
~Chibi petted the kitties at 08:30 p.m.~
even more shopping
Wednesday, March 20, 2002
[listening to: Friend by Ayumi Hamasaki (o_o!?)]
just got back a bit ago. yeah. i have all i need for my omi costume now, even the goggles!!! =D i was so happy! i told mama that i just wanted to do an irish jig; i was so happy. ^_____^ i also got some other things. i got a new backpack! wai! what else? i also got some more new shoes. believe it or not i found them at Hot Topic. i was really happy about that. its *really* rare for me to find shoes that i can fit in at HT. i guess my size is 5 now, cause i can fit into them pretty well. ^^; still, its pretty hard to shop for shoes. pants too. anyhoo. what else? i also got some shoe laces at HT. ^___^ have i mentioned i love that store? ^^; my mom is watching Rurouni Kenshin now.>_>; i know my mom likes some anime, but its still kinda strange. My mom loves Tenchi Muyo!. she even has a keychain of Tenchi. o_o; its kinda funny really. actually its more of a good thing, cause it means mama is more willing to buy me stuffs. >D bwah ha ha ha ha! im shuch an ebil chibi, ne? tee hee. well, im gonna head out fer a bit.
mom likes Rurouni Kenshin. >_>;
~Chibi petted the kitties at 07:58 p.m.~
more shopping
Wednesday, March 20, 2002
mom took me shopping AGAIN. O_o what is she on? i swear. its okay, just weired. ><; like she wants to spend money or something. o_o ::coughs:: anyway. today i got a different shirt for my omi costume. one that matches better. i also got shoes! =D i havent gotten new shoes in a long time. we went to like 10 different stores tho. o_o damn i hate being short. i wear like size 4? @_@ its so hard to find shoes. luckly i found a pair that ill be able to get away with as omis shoes that were a size 5- sizes 5 that i can fit into. gah. i have to go. were going to go do some *more* shopping. damn im getting all shopped out. XD more later. matta ne. ^-^
~Chibi petted the kitties at 04:50 p.m.~
sakura ga daisuki
Tuesday, March 19, 2002
[listening to: Duvet Serial Expiriments Lain OP theme song]
i love this picture. it gives me a sense of peace and tanquility. its beautifl and touching. just thought i would share.
w00 im puttin in a lot of entries ne? i think im gonna archive soon, but i havent decided to change my layout. ::shrugs:: ill think about that later tho.
~Chibi petted the kitties at 03:56 p.m.~
tee hee
Tuesday, March 19, 2002
[listening to: Papa lapped a pap lopped by Gackt (sensing a pattern, are we? ^^;)]
me = dork. ^-^
STOP WITH THE MADNESS!! (read: Tests) XD
~Chibi petted the kitties at 03:11 p.m.~
kasumi karen
Tuesday, March 19, 2002
You're Kasumi Karen!
You’re outgoing and friendly, you are probably a big flirt, and you know how to flaunt your good qualities. However, you’re also a lot deeper than most people realize. Beneath your teasing attitude lies your true kind and gentle nature. You care deeply about people in general, and your loved ones in particular. Your maternal instincts lead you to automatically wish to protect that which you love, even if it happens to be a married man...
Which Dragon of Heaven are you?
Quiz by Kerianne
actually this is a pretty good description of me. ^-^ im really nice. its hard for me to be really mean, even when im in a bad mood. and i would willingly give my life for a friend, if ever in the situation. espically caitlin. shes...my best friend. and no one can replace her. ^-^
~Chibi petted the kitties at 02:54 p.m.~
kaimasu!
Tuesday, March 19, 2002
[listening to: ~sekai ray~ by Gackt]
mama took me shopping today after my appointment with patty. (dont ask who patty is, all i can say for sure really is that shes a psyciatrist. so whatever) anyway. i got lots of things. i got shorts and a shirt for my omi costume, so i was genki about that. ^-^ then i got to go to hot topic! =D i lurve that store. i actually found some pants that were small enough to fit me. ^^;; wai! i also got some punkeh shirts. its all good. now im kinda bored. im supposed to clean my room, but i dont feel like it. u_U i prolly will later tho. its a mess. x_x; i want to organize my clothes. oh goody. ::sarcasam:: >_> well, im done for now...
~Chibi petted the kitties at 02:26 p.m.~
i had fun
Monday, March 18, 2002
[listening to: Cube by Gackt]
i had a shit load of fun yesterday. i love it when kit nee chan comes down from college. we have so much fun. she ALWAYS brings out the unashamed crazy-EST side of me. ^-^ so we planned to go see Ice Age right? well when we got there, (on time mind you) they were already sold out!! > on other news, im back on neopets again. u_U im serious i can not stay away from that site. its too cute. like me. =D hee hee. for some reason i just got a craving for some pizza or something. its the chibi cravings i guess. o_o ::sigh:: the life of a chibi isnt easy.
then again, is anyones?
~Chibi petted the kitties at 04:33 p.m.~
top o' the mornin to ye! =D
Sunday, March 17, 2002
FUNNESS! its st pattys day!! =D wai wai! im gonna see if i have any green to wear. ^_^ the only reason why im so in the st pattys day spirit is because one of my favorite anime charaters, Farfarello from Weiß Kreuz, is irish. ^-^ gah, i have to go clean now so i can go see Ice Age with Kit nee chan. laterzness. shmoo! =D
~Chibi petted the kitties at 12:31 p.m.~
shibby
Saturday, March 16, 2002
whats up beautiful people?!? =D
i got my Yami no Matsuei manga in today! ::squeegasam:: *_____*!
other than that i really dont have much to talk about. >.> kinda boring day. at least its spring break, ne? =D wai wai!
~Chibi petted the kitties at 06:38 p.m.~
cool
Thursday, March 14, 2002
yeah, ive already done a gw one, but, the description on this one fit me almost to a T. so, whatever. im hungry. =P
image was too big, click to view. ^^;
You're Duo Maxwell!
Find out Which Gundam Wing character you are.
~Chibi petted the kitties at 06:02 p.m.~
do i ever sleep when i say i will?? ><
Thursday, March 14, 2002
39% addicted to Instant Messenger. How about you?
sorreh, i saw this at rob's blog and i just had to take it. it was...calling to meh. XD
NEED SLEEP GUNDAMNIT!! ><;;; ::bashes her head on the comp screen::
~Chibi petted the kitties at 12:49 a.m.~
this computer is a fuckin piece of SHIT!! ><
Thursday, March 14, 2002
grr. i just typed out this pretty long entry, then, my computer farts. ::kicks compy:: and reeeally dont have enough energy to type a whole lot...i think. we'll see how this goes. anyway.
first off, before i forget, you can put me on your dailies or whatever. ^^; im not sure what that is, but whatever. cheese that sounded SO newbieish. fuck. >< im tired. AND hungry. not good. i want some callah bread. good shit. =9 ::coughs:: anyway, on to important things...
the reason i havent been around (or ANYWHERE for that matter) is cause i had an emotional breakdown of sorts on monday. in school. >< NOT fun. i was all crying and shit. (have you noticed how many times ive said shit in this entry?) >.> ::yawns:: can i tell you more tomarrow- er...later today after i sleep and eat and all that good shit? thats what i thought. oyasumi. =.= ::grumbles and falls into her nice warm nest-bed-thing::
~Chibi petted the kitties at 12:34 a.m.~
hn.
Tuesday, March 12, 2002
 You're the STYLE tag- you are very dramatic, but when you mess up or overdramatize something, you know it and you change. |
~Chibi petted the kitties at 02:20 p.m.~
not suprised.
Tuesday, March 12, 2002
 | I'm a Jrock fangirl |
~Chibi petted the kitties at 01:48 p.m.~
ke ke ke ke
Tuesday, March 12, 2002
"How can you claim a preferance if you haven't tried both?" ~Hiro, from a fanfic
how true =D
~Chibi petted the kitties at 01:18 p.m.~
haircut SHIMASU!
Sunday, March 10, 2002
wai! i got my haircut!! =D
okay, imagine omi, with shoulder length hair.
dats me! =D its soo cool. i love it.
oi i have a lot of shit to do today. x.x homework and chores. that sux. oh well, i need to get my grades up and i want to clean my room (!). really, its a mess. x.x; so im only gonna stay on the compy for a little while.
hm i wonder if my web camera works? i have a camera thing. i just dont have like a site or anything. ::shrugs:: i did for a while, but then you had to pay for it, and i dont have enough money. u.u mebby ill take a piccy of my haircut! =D then you guys can see it! ^-^ that would be fun, ne? anyway, im in a good mood. ^-^ mebby ill go chat for a bit before i clean. ^-^ matta ne!
~Chibi petted the kitties at 02:27 p.m.~
genki genki
Saturday, March 9, 2002
im all in a good mood now. yay! =D
im talkin to Rob. hes funneh. =D
wheeeeeeee! =D
this entry is brought to you by coca cola, drank late at night by a girl with ADD. be afraid.
~Chibi petted the kitties at 01:35 a.m.~
he suffered so much
Friday, March 8, 2002
i just watched Anatomy of a Hate Crime on mtv. it was about Matthew Shepard.
I cried.
~Chibi petted the kitties at 08:02 p.m.~
dare desu ka?
Friday, March 8, 2002
i was reading megans diary. and i realized, i dont know that much about her. i mean like past and stuff. i want to tho. i hope she considers me a good enough friend to talk to about some things. i miss melissa too. we seem so far apart now. i think i have the url to her diary...i need to read it. then maybe call her sometime. ask her how she is. i think about her and megan a lot. i never get to see them! and it sucks! x.x ill get on msn later and see if theyre on. its so quiet here...
one other thing. to people reading this. i think that i may not censor my thoughts. because, i think that if you want to be true friends with someone, you should be able to tell them almost anything. i know a lot of my friends that im not neccicarily uber close with read this, but, i dont really care. this is a place for me to vent, to show my thoughts. so there. if you wanna stop reading this, go ahead. but then again, im in a fairly decent mood right now. im im horribly moody. ^^;
im really worried about caitlin. im going nuts. i havent seen her since tuesday. i dont know where she is. sometimes i feel like i have to protect her. shes important to me. my best friend. i dont have enough. then again, jerry (my psycaitrist) says that i dont care about myself enough. thats true. ive always disliked myself. sometimes even hated myself. i still do a lot. im not entirley sure how to fix that. which reminds me. things are not going well in my life currently. im way behind in my schoolwork. does this seem like its my only concern to you? its not. i just get a lot of pressure. jerry says im too nice. i am. i hate it. its just that ive never really had friends till last year. im always lonley. you would think i would be used to it. i care too much about others and not enough about myself. im scared. i want someone to hold me and tell me its all right. i want to feel loved. oh but wait, dont forget that school work is supposed to come before everything else. fuck you. i like hugs. theyre warm and comforting. touch. i like touch- i dont feel so lonley anymore. you know, my shrink and kaa san are always bugging me about my school work, but no one ever asks me "how are you?" or "did you have a good day?" the only time im asked these is when im obviously depressed and pouting, ect. the truth is, im always masking my feelings. im not sure why. maybe it shows that im weak.
::sigh:: okay enough with the freewriting. i think thats enough for this entry. (its now 5:05) o.O; so yeah. matta ne.
~Chibi petted the kitties at 04:32 p.m.~
bah =.=
Friday, March 8, 2002
stupid retainer. >.<
im SO glad that i only have to wear mine at night now. >.<; ::falls asleep on her keyboard::
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o.o;
~Chibi petted the kitties at 02:46 a.m.~
kowai
Friday, March 8, 2002
i just saw one of the creepiest eps of the x-files. ._. i am pretty creeped out right now. lots of demons. all the gargoyles...nomally i think gargoyles are cool but...i dont know. something about this episode really scared me. im not sure. @.@ anyway. its late. (early?) i think i might go read a quick fic then hop to bed. im kinda tired. well, im more tired than i usually am at 1 am. >.>; ::coughs::
~Chibi petted the kitties at 01:14 a.m.~
OMI!!
Thursday, March 7, 2002
I LUV mah new layout! soo kawaii! =D i really wanted to get an omi layout cause im going to anime central next month and im going as omi. =D hana sama is going as youji! shibby ne? *-*
i havent had a real meal in about...2 1/2 days? damn i need food. x.x; ja ne! ^^;
~Chibi petted the kitties at 10:16 p.m.~
procrastionation
Thursday, March 7, 2002
im procrastinating from doing my bio project. thats due tomarrow. X_x; i WILL get to it...but im looking for layouts! im getting tired of tasuki. XD no offence tasuki mah man. ^^; i want either an angel sanctuary or an omi from Weiß kreuz. =D
did i tell you that i decided to cut my hair like omi/shuichi/kinomoto sakura? XDXD yop, cute and short. although i must say i am a little hesitant. cause see, my dad liked my hair long. and he died when i was 5.
but im gonna do it! ^-^ its too cute! =D
~Chibi petted the kitties at 07:04 p.m.~
tee hee! =3
Tuesday, March 5, 2002
::snigger snigger squee squee:: =D
~Chibi petted the kitties at 10:59 p.m.~
oi
Tuesday, March 5, 2002
im kinda stressed. u_U. lotsa homework i need to catch up on. im falling way behind. not good not good. grrr. X_x i archived! wai! >_>; next time i archive ill change the layout too. ^-^ anyway. i may not get a lot of chances to get on the comp this week. i have waaay too much homework i need to catch up on. cheese im so stupid! how could i let myself slack off? oh i know, its because im addicted to the computer and anime and i never focus on whats important. damnit all to hell. u_____u; ::sigh:: well, its time for me to focus on the task at hand.
oh yeah, and i got my manga yesterday. wai!
~Chibi petted the kitties at 06:38 p.m.~
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